It’s not my fault that I can’t understand your pain
I’m going round in circles over nothing
Despite the energy I’ve spent on being you
I don’t think it’ll all amount to something

So please forgive me if I’m seeming far away
It takes a while to find the hard reset key
My body’s broken and my psyche’s doing worse
At this point it’d be best if you could end me

I want to fall apart again
With water in my veins
And ice inside my brain
Oh
I need to crash against the day
A slave to all I make
A teardrop in the lake
I call

It’s been a week since I’ve had a proper meal
And yet my brain still seems content to let me starve
The months just flicker by
I can’t yet bring myself to cry for the ragged holes they carve

So I apologize for my selfishness
The ways I’ve left you powerless as I retreated back into myself
I’ve been a weight on you, I haven’t paid my dues
You know I don’t deserve your help

At the end of the universe
There is nothing but the embers of your soul
Listen close to your death drive
There is nothing left in this life
And the gods will know you chose right

But I can see the light

I want to fall in love again
With lightning in my veins
A storm inside my brain
Oh
I need to claw above the day
To care for all I make
To hear the echoed wake
I call
When the night is gone
The tides will part
All a testament to fear of moving on
I won’t let you have this one
Not until my collapsing heart turns to rust